I have been watching my world and yours deluged with horrific hurricanes, earthquakes, and politico anger in the past few years. It does seem humanity is sitting on the crux of possible extinction. People are grieving for the world we no longer have. Many people are expressing their thoughts through anger, rage, aggression, and violent actions. Bottom line is many are embracing fear that is fueled with the most progressive technological media we have experienced in our history. Social media posts often instead of providing peace and calm provide information that encourages emotional quicksand sandwiched in a blaming environment of depressive verbal diarrhea.
For the past twelve years I have been re-creating the person I previously was. My personal crisis coincided with the death of my partner and an equal death of a lifetime of codependent behavior. I had made choices and acted upon them freely, yet prior to my decision to live my life differently, I knew no other way to exist. I was an aggressive doormat, filled with anger and fear. Even though I practiced active spirituality, I was a vortex of intense emotions.
In 2013 I relinquished television watching. I cleared and detoxified my body of foods that were creating inflammation within my system. I created a discipline of physical exercise, quiet daily reflection, and stillness. I did not do these things because I am saintly or better than anyone else. I needed to create a new way to live because the old way was literally eating me into a young death. Above all I began practicing being very quiet. Being quiet brought calmness. Once I became quiet, I really noticed how noisy the world had become around me. I noticed people needing to talk without really saying anything other than needing to feed their egos. I noticed loud music, loud machines, louder expressions of anger and fears. Had I not gotten quiet I would have continued to be an equal contributor to the noisy chaos of the world.
I also began attracting a different type of people into my social circle. I was drawn to sensitive, calmer men. I released brash in your face, opinionated women from my life. I also noticed I was becoming kinder and more compassionate. Instead of speaking from my former intellectual , analytical self I was speaking from my heart. This is not to say that at times my old self complete with its shadow personality does not emerge from the depths of my ego because it does. When this happens, it is a giant red flag that I am once again in fear and angry over those things I really have no control over. That is the Cosmic Joke: what most of us have no control over are the very things that trigger our fears and are manifested in the form of anger, depression, frustration, and self righteous thoughts and actions.
Perhaps if we each really looked deeply into ourselves and made a conscious decision to find quiet times many times in each 24 hour period without the cell phone, without the television, without the computer, without social media ,without raising our voices to try to convince each other what great information, brain power we love to call our superior intellect , and I am right vs you are wrong opinions, we might discover we are the ones we have been waiting for…..the ones to save humanity from its self destruction of a downward chaotic spiral.
S-h-h-h-h Did you hear that? Ah that was quiet calmness breathing life back into myself. I welcome you to join the calm.